Dangz

I've never felt this lousy before :(
Sigh! Sometimes I feel that I should just don't care everything and do what I want but sometimes I feel that I should be responsible for my own actions.
Damn it! I've been avoiding this word for as long as I can, RESPONSIBILITY. I am a very pampered friend so in sec and JC I'm very well taken care off by my friends. The point I turned 20 the number two changed my life. I begin to shoulder responsibility and be reliable for my own actions.
Well, nobody like consequences but being myself, so burden and never leave my comfort zone before, I actually bear a lot of consequences.
I lost best friends, my comfort zone and trust from others. Therefore I hated responsibility. However, because of responsibility, I learn a lot and I become a mature individual. I used to depend so much on my friends. I'm not perfect, I'm still learning to be a better person.
I do miss my best friends a lot but I want to thank them for forcing me to grow up.

I remembered this story my teacher once told me like in my face. She said that any type of relationship is like flying a kite. It will snapped if you pull it too tightly and it will fly away if you handle it loosely. I didnt really get it at that time because life was good. I guess I can fully understand it now after losing my best friends.

I'm not trying to rant but I wanna keep a post so that when I look back I will see how far I've come and I need to be a better person 💪 I believe I can do it.

On a side note, I still hate school -.-

THAT'S ITZ!

People

I don't understand people.
People that I used to think are kind become especially cold and mean.
People that I used to think are too unique and aloof are actually the ones that are most comfortable to hang out with.
People that I thought were the most honest people turn out to be hypocrites.
People who I thought were selfish turn out to be the most generous ones.
People who I once considered as close friends can over-night-ly become the most distanced person I know.
People can choose who they wanna become and how they wanna treat others.

I might be too quick to judge but I learn from my judgement.
Life is filled with surprises!
I'm contended that even though my life revolved around people that hold negative values, I do have true friends(and obviously my family) that I hold dearly.
Treat people the way you wanna be treated
I'm not perfect, I'm still learning how to be nicer ^~^

Stressemostress

I was damn stress in the morning but after talking to my friends i felt calmer~
Aiyoh! I really don't like the feeling of stress.
I can get through this!
Finals are like two weeks away and i've got a lot of lectures left untouch OHGOOOOSH!
I have been sleeping very little lately due to the amount of stress i am experiencing. This is also why I am getting headaches more often. Damnnnn! I don't think I have ever study this hard but it's alright! I believe that my effort will not be wasted. Just let me enjoy the process of studying.

I kind of feel very bad towards ahwei :( because we were supposed to meet two weeks before but i was so busy with CEP2 and school work so we postponed to this week. We didn't get to meet this week too because I feel that I need to study. 真是不好意素! I will definitely make up for all these pangseh-ing after finals!

Right now, i am listening to Jay Chou's songs while trying to study for MLE2102 and Chemistry. Eeeek! Still feel quite sucky that I didn't manage to get tickets to Jay Chou's concert :\
Jay chou's songs have the ability to make you shooo sad but i like.

Harnah Harnah! Back to revising -.-

I think my post doesn't really make sense, my brain is barely working now! Wells, at least when i look back, there is something(this post) for me to laugh about LOLOLOLOLOL!

Blog On.

Well... I haven't been blogging for quite a long time and since subiang said it would be nice to continue blogging and i kind of feel i need to keep a record of what is happening in my life :)
So... how's life?
I guess it is good! HAHAHAHA!
Let me just write down whatever I am thinking right now.

Life
One thing i don't like about uni life is the level of stress i am experiencing. I do not have enough sleep and my homework are forever unfinished. You might think that JC is bad enough, failing everthing but life goes on. Huh, come try uni. Uni is like average result for a specific module, 70. LOLOLOLOL Okay, si min can do it! Hahahaha! I can't even, i'm always not at the average range *Sighpie I guess it's alright, there are always people who do better than you. As long as i tried my best, i will get the grade i deserved (I am saying this with tears in my eyes HAHAHAHA! kiddingz)
I came out with this quote because i feel everyone is competitive, one way or another.
So here's the quote
"Don't compete with anyone because even if you win them, you are only their level. Win yourself and you will be upz there, where you belong."

Wise words from wise person.

Friends
Well... I've come to realisation that it is not the amount of friends you make in life. Having a few true friends is better than being surrounded by many fake friends. True enough, there are a lot of fake people in uni. Being all nice to you just to gain something from you. BLAH! I am thankful that i am friend with subzerazs! Even though there are days we quarrel, fight and don't wanna talk to each other, i am still thankful that she is still by my side :') Tears of joy. Speaking of subae, let me tell you something about her. She is... not that like any of my other friends that i have and i don't know how we eventually become bestest best friend. Hmm...She is extremely patience and honest. She is also smart. I also learnt a lot from her. I think she is the only one friend that totally leave me alone when i'm throwing my tantrum. I think i throw my tantrum lesser because nobody will be there to pamper me anymore. URGH! Time to grow up. Growing up sucks especially when you got friend like sub, she will just let you handle yourself :( Haizxc! It is a good thing, i need to learn to grow out of my princess syndrome. She is the only one friend in my life that we hardly had any telepathy and worst of all our likes are completely opposite. Oh yea, I am a freaking extrovert and she is more of an introvert even though you see more of her extrovert side. Wells.., she like to say that opposite attract, which i don't disagree. Basically, all i wanna say is that I appreciate subiang as my friend who is always there for moi.

Family
I wanna talk about my dad. Everyone know that i am closer to my mom and i'm like a younger version of my momma ^^
My dad is a very traditional man. He is quite superstitious and value chinese culture very much. My dad is a very respectable man. Every time i attend some event, function or wedding dinner with my dad, his friends will always come to us and tell us how capable my dad is. It takes a lot for my dad to be this capable, the amount of time he put in and the amount of stress he suffered... My mom told me that whenever they attend wedding dinner hosted by my dad's worker, they will always wait for my dad to arrive before serving. I guess my dad must mean a lot to them for them to delay the dinner. Probably because he is my dad, i don't see what the others see in him but i do realise that my dad is very proud of us(his children) when speaking of us in front of his friends. Even though I do not exceed in my academic, my parents never put stress on me especially my dad. They will always be comforting me saying that "尽力就好” Maybe i know my parents do not care much about my result so i always study halfheartedly. It is so difficult to excel in uni, everyone is so upz there! It is so tired to wanna try to level with them so i choose the easy way out. I will try my best to get better result. I know i can do it, i will do it!

End of today with a good note.
Love myself a little more everyday ~

Gift of 7th Room

Watched an epic movie on TV today! I was switching from channel to channel to find the proper program to watch and this happen to be showing.
The little girl caught my attention because she is so cute o^-^o
It is a comedy but it is also a very touching movie! They also talk about sailor moon, my favorite cartoon when i was young! I have their sticker-cards too *FEELING REALLY PROUD*  Hahahaha!
Definitely worth watching!
I must warn chu, some parts are really really very sad T-T

The movie is about the special bond between father and daughter/son and loyalty between cell mates.
Just watch it and you will know what i mean ~
七號房的禮物 Gift of 7th Room




Felt so much better after letting all out!
I miss the times where we go MIA just to get out of this crazy world for a few hours! I really wanna do that again! I'm still living in self-denial!!! I don't want school to start or week 3 to come!!!